to all u mom's out there...

Happy Mother's Day!

I don't know where I would be without mine.

tell me lies.

Checked my e-mail before heading to work this morning ... dad has sent me the link to this video. I've actually seen it posted several other places the past year. Let's make it one more.

my new baby.

Ok, so it's not an actual baby. But, it is my new ipod touch and ... I LOVE IT, I LOVE IT, I LOVE IT!!!!

Seriously folks, it's pretty freakin' cool. And yeah, it would have been nice to just get an iphone and be done with it, but the phone is a couple hundred dollars more expensive, and the Internet fees and whatnot are more than I can afford right now.

The ipod touch comes equip with everything the iphone has (including Internet connection) only without any monthly fees. I can get online anywhere there is a wi-fi connection. Sweet!

It's extremely user friendly and has more than enough space for the things I want. I've already loaded 300 songs and over 100 pictures and have not even used up 2 G yet (mine is an 8 G total).

Ok. I'm done. My apologies for the excessive rambling and bragging. I've just fallen in love with the little thing and am sooo happy to have an mp3 player again (I hope the person who stole my pink Zen Micro is choking on it as I type this!)

boo!

My blog layout is still a snow scene? ... wow, it really has been awhile since I've been on here.

It's been about 6 weeks, and there is no way for me to thoroughly update without a ridiculously long post. But, I'll at least highlight some of the random/fun things that have happened over past few weeks.

* I put in a 2 month notice to my apartments that I will not be renewing my lease this summer. The notice does not go into effect til May 1st. Apartment hunting will begin shortly, and as of now I will be keeping Steven as my roommate... *grins*

*Drove 6 hours to Cleveland... did not find Drew Carey, but did run into an angry blizzard who caused me to get lost in the great lake city for 2 hours. The street signs were ALL covered in snow, so the few people who told me to turn right on Euclid were not much help. Thanks anyways! I managed to find my hotel by midnight.

* My mp3 player (which to those who know me well, it was like a second child), my CD player/radio, and numerous Cd's were stolen from my car. I cussed and cried, but I'm the idiot who left my door unlocked. I am now driving 'round town in silence, singing and talking to myself.

* I saw Celtic Women in concert at the Louisville Palace Theater. It was amazing!!!! Plus, if you have never been to the Louisville Palace, you don't know what you are missing. It is absolutely beautiful, and could easily upstage any act gracing it's stage.

*Jay may have convinced me to play softball (which is crazy considering the only sports I have ever been good at were basketball and volleyball ... and that was years ago).

* I may be going to California this summer with Miss A! She is considering going to graduate school out west, so we thought we'd make a vacation out of it. If that falls through, we are still going to head up to Chicago and take the town by storm! It doesn't compare to California, but we may not be able to afford plane tickets. Either way, there is fun to be had!

I'll stop there. My head is buzzing with all the little comings and goings of life recently, not all of them being blogworthy. I suppose it was somewhat of a half-assed update, but at least gives evidence to my still being alive and well ;) Hopefully, I will be on more, giving my blog the love it deserves (which probably means gettin' rid of the snowy background).

so sue me...

I am officially the biggest dork in the world.

Yes folks, it is rumored (and has been for a couple of weeks now) that The New Kids on the Block are reuniting.

My reaction: Hell yeah!!!

My very first concert was NKOTB, and I wouldn't doubt if my dad suffers from hearing loss after that fun-filled night 19 yrs ago. I made a sign that proclaimed, "I love Donnie 4-ever," and screamed so loud that my voice was but a whisper for several days. I also pouted on the ride home, pissed because they were sold out of Donnie t-shirts so I had to settle for Jordan. The injustice!!!

Anyways, I'm very aware that their music was silly bubble gum confection, and I doubt that anything they release now is gonna blow people away and land them on next year's Grammy's.

Still, I'm looking forward to seeing the fab-five from Boston make an appearance again.

Until then, here's a little walk down memory lane ... there were thousands of videos on youtube to choose from, but this was always one of my favs. Plus, Donnie is shirtless and when I was 9, well that was like watching porn ;)

Warning: A hazardous amount of 80's hair, shiny sequins, silk shirts, top-notch dancing, and some heart stopping pelvis thrusts @ 2:32.

lazy sunday.

I normally find these quizzes silly.

Who cares? It's a lazy Sunday and I can do what I want ;)



"Your exact moment of the day is always changing, because the sun never sets at exactly the same time. You are the romantic moments just after sunset when it's still light enough to see your way around outside, and the sky is a blend of reds, pinks, purples, and blues. At this time of day, the light has a special way of making even rundown buildings looks like works of art. You're like that, too – you're always finding beauty and magic in unexpected places. Not only will you wish on the first star you see, somewhere inside, you actually expect that wish to come true"

crumbling rock.

Compared to this time a year ago, I am in a much better place. I have higher self-esteem and am more comfortable in my skin (which may be due to losing weight?) Most importantly, I have learned to keep my emotions in check; I have become a rock of sorts, staying strong for my family and for myself.

Tonight, however, I feel like saying, "Fuck that!"

I am soooo tired of holding everything inside.

I have enjoyed becoming the comforter and the confidant. I keep my problems on the back burner so that my friends have the freedom to bring their burdens to me, without having to worry about my own fragile status.

But, the thing is... I am fragile.

I hate myself for that.

patriots and pot roast. yummy.

Tom Brady + sweaty helmet head + scruffy face = Perfection! ;)

Today I made pot roast with potatoes, carrots, and onions. Decided it was too yummy not to share, and invited my parents over for dinner and a Patriots game. I wasn't sure I would be able to lure my dad away from his precious widescreen television, but he caved and we spent a fun-filled evening at my apartment.

I love watching sports with my dad. I am the eternal pessimist, and he remains the cool and constant optimist. I'm ashamed to admit I'm always the first to wanna throw in the towel:

"Oh my God, they are gonna lose!!" is my typical outcry, accompanied by pacing and several stomps.

"Sit down, daughter. They are not gonna lose... " is always his stern but calm reply.

He says it like it's written in stone; a sure bet. Of course there have been countless times over the years when he has been wrong (don't tell him that), but when he's right I always like to extend a little credit his way.

I'm not sure how much he enjoys watching games with me though, especially since my mom and I can't help but make repeated references to just how darn cute Tom Brady is. I do believe "yummy" is my favorite word when his face pops onto the screen.

Things have been tough for my family the past several months. So many things have gone wrong, our lives wanting to unravel at the seams. It's been very difficult to keep my emotions in check, but I have remained a constant rock...

Last night was good times... another reminder of how much I love my family.

(And I'm sure the Pats victory over the Giants may have contributed to the above mentioned good times)

photo courtesy of espn.com

pointless dribble

I am so unbelievably bored right now.

I don't feel like watching television... I don't feel like watching one of the many movies I borrowed from Jason... there are no books calling my name... I already wrote in my journal earlier, leading to a few lines of pointless dribble. I also spent a lazy hour talking on the phone to several friends, checking in and sharing a laugh or two. I'm sure they are asleep now.

I'm not sleepy (maybe because I'm actually off work tomorrow and my body knows if I stay up late I can sleep in)... I don't feel like roaming mindlessly online. I tried to play Word Racer on Yahoo, but after 30 minutes of losing I'm now here pecking away on my blog. Silly really, considering I don't have much to say.

Perhaps I should be content in my boredom. There were several days this week when I would have given anything to be lying on the floor, chin propped upon pillow, having nothing in the world to do. My kitty, her bandaged paw stretched out beneath the Christmas tree, seems very comfortable in my current nothing-in-the-world-to-do state.

So, I will lay here quietly, enjoying this peaceful midnight hour. Hopefully sleep or a brilliant idea will find me soon...

i can't wait to have kids :)